It's the time of the year for a full time reflection, reminiscing events and moments of life throughout the whole year and my, it's been a journey indeed. It has been a bitter sweet journey this year. Hahaha so cliche right? But yeah. Many things had happened this year.

Of course to start off, I had an amazing journey trying out lotsa food throughout the year. XD That explains a lot you see, coz I've put on weight..a lot this year -_-; Had my first fine dining dinner at Max @ IHaus (link) on my birthday and also in conjunction with Jo's, which was the most expensive dinner I've ate ever. Went to Shang-Rila's buffet in conjunction with dad's birthday. Then, several trips to Sushi Zanmai (my favourite XD I love sushi). Went to Big Apple Berjaya (link).. Went to Fong Lye (link) to celebrate my mum's birthday which I vowed silently to myself I'd NEVER ever go there anymore because their system sucks, that made us waited for almost an hour.. Went to Smokehouse (link) to celebrate Ruh's birthday.. and many many more. Hehe, living for food? :P

Earned a few hundred extra cash for myself this year, great achievement XD because I got the money by doing some advert, which was great and working from home, which was not so great because I'm a lazy pig. Thank God, seriously anyway for giving me the endurance. This is also the year that I'm so blessed with so many things be it small or big from sites online. Nuffnang had gave me so far, 5 movie invites premier or special screening, a chance to participate in My Water Moments with Sony TX5 event (link). I must say the Nuffnang community have improved a lot and their team are a bunch of friendly people I guess..

Won a couple CDs from Sony Music Malaysia (link). As much as I really love Sony Music Malaysia for their updates and free goodies, I must say that I'm badly disturbed by an event whereby they deleted my sister's comment without explaining. Don't want to elaborate more..

Anyway, I also won the grand prize of Hurts Presentation Box from Juiceonline (link) and even got to watch the Peter Pan Musical for free, happening now at Sunway thanks to AllMalaysian Blogger. Won a David Archulete CD from 7-Eleven. Really, never won so many things in my life hahaha. :)

Had many fun times with YPFers also, the two latest happening events - Brothers' Night (link) and Sisters' Night, I bet every YPFer had fun being pirates or princesses. Movie screening in February was the mark of the beginning of the year I guess, following up are the many activities we held throughout the whole year, had fun working together with the other leaders, had our share of good times and stressing time :P

This is also the year, my grandmother and my aunt had shifted out, 14/11/10 is a date to be remembered. For almost five years ago, they said with their own mouth they wanted to shift, and finally after much waiting, pushing and ugly scenes, they've finally did it. Of course, along the way of shifting those stuffs, they took away many things theirs or not, as long as they like it. But whatever, because we're just too happy that they left. Free from them, a smell of fresh air and freedom from curses they always lashed out at us. You wouldn't know how much verbal abuse we suffer you know? So don't make your judgment if you ain't know nothing.

2010, I've lost my uncle, way too sudden. Way too sudden. But reality hits hard at us. I know it's even harder especially for my mum. But I guess we learn not to take our family members for granted..

This is also the last year in high school. Form 5, suddenly I feel so old, and scared at the thought that hey, I'm gonna go college soon. Can I cope? What it will be like? Right, so lame. Hahaha. But I'd definitely miss my friends, miss the moments of crapping and bombarding lame stuffs, wasting time behind the classroom chatting about nonsense. Definitely will miss all my friends.

Talking about school, I've been to two schools in secondary. First, I spent about like 2 months, in Cochrane and then I shifted out to Mutiara for morning session. Then, back to Cochrane again in form 3. Lifeless? Kinda. Wahaha. In Mutiara, I was in 1E, which was probably one of the most excellent class ever I've been into. I remembered being very scared because at that time, I'm sure everyone have already found their friend and I'm like a new noob kid. Yuck XD. And thankfully, I was in the same class with Beatrix, such a relief. 2006, the year I came to know Hui Xian and grew very closely to be her friend at that point of time. Something dramatic happened after I return from Korea that year, in school. LOL. I remember myself crying for that incident. Okay, it was actually a spot check and the teacher rampas /strong word. my Pokeman cards (hahahaha! DONT laugh =x) and also my souvenirs for my friends from Korea. And, I grew to hate secondary school by the end of the year D: Oh yea, I got 4th in class by end of the year? Lol. I think so.

Form 2. I was in 2E. Havoc, and I began to hate secondary school more because of fussy rules. And lame teachers who says this and that. I grew to be a coward also because I was very afraid of teachers -_-' I remember those art lessons lols. I did every single one of them. :x I'm so guai :D Results were kinda bad throughout the year, but I managed to get a pretty good result at the end of the year. :D Form 2 was an emo year, well growing up mah, gone through some emo times, when I had a lot of self pity and sooo self absorbed. Thinking back, I feel so immature and .. eww. XD

Form 3. I happily transfered out of Mutiara to Cochrane. And this was the only year I enjoyed the freedom from rules in high school. I sadly said goodbye to my friends in Mutiara, especially Hui Xian.. of course, I hated being the new noob kid in Cochrane as everyone already have their own friends and what not. And thankfully, I went to the same class as Hoong Fong. Phew. Then, I came to know Joe korkor and Aki. And yea, we were really close in form 3. Then, Esther a new girl to the school also sat beside me. I remember that Joe korkor would always come to the back place where I sat and he would sing songs while I sleep. -.-' Hahah, yea I used to be a very very very quiet and anti social girl (perhaps still is now) and "emo girl" and everyone would think I'm some kind of weirdo I guess. I still remember, in the first test, I failed a subject for the first time in my life -__-' SCIENCE. I should have known I'm not a science person.. Lol. Anyway, PMR year!

Form 4, we went separate classes. I took up full science subjects - biology, chemistry and physics. Hoong Fong and Aki took up accounts and Joe korkor was in my next door class. So, I pretty suck at most of the subs I took. Sucks man. And everything changed in form 4. I mean, I got to know Melissa, Belinda and Sarah and the rest was history. LOL. We literally caused havoc in class I think. -_-' Summore we're sitting right at the back of the class.. so you know what I mean..And I was scared of Tse Ling then, she always with Jun Huei one that time XD. And she like so fierce lalala~

2010, It was a great year in class, made new friendships with classmates whom I've never talked with last year. Created many more inside jokes with Melissa, Belinda, Sarah and Tse Ling. Blue cars, black shiny cars, lcly, andrew, and the list goes on. And I do miss those times when we crap randomly with Kwok Hoong or Jih Dar or the rest of the people available. Miss bullying people around. Hahaha, great times really.

And unfortunately, I'm chosen to take part in NS at NS. As in National Service at Negeri Sembilan. XD Lols, haih. Also, I've finished my SPM already. Wow wee. My whole secondary life gone. Time past quickly, really. As if I just knew Hui Xian in Form 1 yesterday :)

This is also the year, I guess a few teachers had labelled me as a rebellion and also stubborn student. Because of what I said, how I reacted to my add maths teacher beginning of this year because she accused me of cheating in exam.. and the marks was crap, not like I scored a 90+. She really hurt my dignity. Lol. Incident still fresh in my mind. Yea, I had forgiven her, because she apologized to me. But I'll never forget. And also in my trial exam, I wrote an essay about changes in school. The changes I want to see in school. And my english teacher showed my essay to my class teacher about it. I don't know why she have to do that. I don't think she's impressed but rather in a way telling my teacher that hey, look what your student said about you and school. Right, I'm over with teachers, I just hope the MOE buck up and please, change the school systems. Don't let the discipline teachers be dictators. Not forgetting, they always openly curse students in public (assembly). No one likes it, not me, not my friends, not even the Malay students or any other students of any race.

And, this year I've struggled with myself emotionally too. Too many questions unanswered, too many compromising. I can't believe it myself.. And also I have silly arguments with friends, but friends do go through all these times, I realized. And I thank God that you're still my friend.

Personally, it had been a very emotional journey for me. Many things happened. I remember the movies we watched, remember the places we went, remember the special numbers on the calendar, remember what we ate. Almost everything. Almost. Thank you, a whole lot. It's been a bittersweet journey really, which is over.

I have written a lot in this whole page, it took me a few weeks to draft this.. and if this posts in any way have offended you, I'm sorry, sincerely. But this are my thoughts and this blog post is personal as I have labelled. :) And I have kept in mind about kebebasan bersuara as I wrote this post : Kebebasan berucap dan mengeluarkan fikiran dengan batasan tertentu bagi menjaga keselamatan dan ketenteraman. I don't think I have caused any kind of insecurity problems.

Anyway, I'm going to be back from Korea soon as you're reading this!

And I would like this post by thanking God for all the things He has done for me, that He is going to do for me and will do for me. Thank You =)

Finally, a very happy new year to all of you! :)

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Ruxyn