It's been 5 years since I started blogging on Blogspot. Time flies isn't it? I started with xtremezx.blogspot.com then to hazelzlurps.blogspot.com then now, www.ruxyn.com I'm gonna stick with this for a very long time now.. or at least for as long as I'm blogging. 

If you've been following my blog for quite some time now, you'll know I've gone up and down with blogging. Missing at certain times, spamming with posts at other times when I'm free or just bored.

What started off as a diary, became less and less personal because of experiences. Mainly because of my rants and how I vent out my frustration on my blog because an obstacle for me to not move on with my life when thing sucks. Sometimes when I look back at my archives, I find myself being so silly and childish. But that's what teens do, right? There were so many subtle messages that I posted in my blog last time.. but now when I read it back, I forgot what I meant behind those subtle messages.

There was a point in these years of blogging, where life "stopped". I didn't find any meaning in life because I was completely frustrated with what was going on in my life. I've lost and gained friends in these 5 years..and it's reflected in this blog. The fact is high school was very memorable, I've found my closest friends in that period of time. But it was also because of what happened in that period of time, that I've lost joy because I was so angry with myself and all that had happened. When college came, I suddenly found a new meaning in life. I've learned to pursue what I love to do and I put effort in achieving them no matter what people may say. 

For the past 1 year, I cannot thank God enough for the blessings that He has given me. From giving me so many opportunities and even blessings that came in material form. I cannot thank Him enough, for giving me the strength to pull through when the world seemed dark. If you know me, you know I am not a person with good self-esteem. But He has given me strength in all that I do. 

Oh. It's 7th June. Happy 5 years in blogging, Ruxyn.